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What a day.

I woke up this morning thinking it was just going to be another Monday. I was going to go to school and while I generally dislike Mondays, I was ambivalent about this one since it didn’t seem as bad as others (especially since I woke up to news that I had won some tea!). I could not have been more wrong.

I drove to my weight loss place as usual and while I was waiting there to be weighed, I decided to check out  Twitter. What I saw changed the mood of my day.

If you aren’t aware, about 2:50pm Eastern Time, there were a few explosions at the Boston Marathon’s finish line as well as other places around Boston. I’ve read some news but  I don’t want to say anything for sure since there’s still investigations going on. I am not sure if we will know for sure what happened today. All I know is there were explosions, people were hurt and 2 or 3 people were killed.

This rocked me to my core today. The biggest reason was that I have many friends there and I was there about 3 weeks ago for PAX. However, once my friends assured me that they and their friends were safe, I still couldn’t relax. I was (and still am) really upset about this. It took me a little while to put my finger on but I finally figured out why. It wasn’t just that I had an emotional attachment to the place (I had an awesome time, but I’ll blog about that later), it was the fact that if this had happened 3 weeks earlier, I would have been there. My friends would have been there. Many others from the geek/gaming/etc community would have been there. I was not the only one who thought this way, either. A couple of my friends expressed this as well..

The point is, this could have happened at any time. It could have happened anywhere. I don’t mean to trivialize the bombing today. Absolutely not. I also felt a bit guilty for thinking along these lines and felt like I was turning this into something about me and my friends. I feel like it’s so much bigger than that, though.

I won’t go into it too much (although I imagined writing a lot about my feelings on it). Maybe I’ll save that for another time.

Two other things that weren’t as bad as Boston getting bombed, but still were not good things, happened today. I found out my counselor at the weight loss place is leaving (she’s the one I bought Wonder Woman socks for when in Boston) and one of my friend’s dad’s died suddenly today (not in Boston, in CA). My heart goes out to my friend because while I never met her dad, I had interacted with him on Facebook and I had hoped to meet him one day.  He was a really wonderful individual and the world is a darker place without him. Such an inspiring man.

The counselor thing I will get over but I’m still bummed since I get along with her so well. I gave her my email and cell number so she can keep in touch and maybe now we can actually  hang out together since she isn’t working for that place.

So yeah, today was pretty awful but tomorrow should be better, right? Right. I’m going to make the most of my life and not let this get me down too much. It’s just hard when it all compounds on you a t once.

Hopefully, I will have another blog post soon. I’m sorry they are so few and far between. I have been  rather busy as of late with school and other things (some of which some know about but I want to make an announcement about something else as well). Hopefully this will pick up a bit more in the summer when I’m a little less busy.

Until then, hug someone and tell them you love them, even if it’s a random person. I think today we could all  use a little random act of kindness like that.

 
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Posted by on April 15, 2013 in Blogging, Random

 

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And the world keeps turning…

Hey everyone! Sorry I’ve gone on hiatus unexpectedly. School started, GW2 launched, and I got lost in both! Plus, I had something rather unexpected happen to me.

It’s going to be a little bit serious, so if you’re not into the seriousness and want to preserve the fun, enthusiastic image you have of me, feel free to skip this post.

So I’ve recently had a bout of depression that lasted a little longer than I wanted it to and went a little darker than it has in the past. A lot of times we don’t think that there are real people behind the avatars so it’s odd for us to talk so freely about stuff like this. I understand this subject can be a little touchy, but I’m going to tackle it head on, like I always do.

My depression went to some pretty dark places, darker than I’m really used to and I’m rather surprised it went there. The only thing that really kept me from going completely under was Guild Wars 2. All I have been doing for the past week or so is playing GW2 and going to school (when I’m not sick enough where I can’t drive). I’ve done some stuff like watch TV and go online, but I haven’t felt the motivation to do much more than that. Blogging, moderating, etc. has all been out of the question.

Until Tuesday. What changed? I went to my intercultural class with my blue haired, gay instructor. At first, I wasn’t going to go. Then, I wasn’t going to participate. By the end of the class, it felt like a huge fog had lifted from me and I felt a lot better. I already sent him an email about it.

Anyway, I feel 100% better! I feel like my old self again and I went to class with no problems today. I’ve been more active on Twitter, and I think I’m ready to jump right back into moderating as well as writing.

I’d like to take the time, though, to encourage anyone who is dealing with depression to reach out to someone. Me, someone in Guild Wars, anyone. You don’t have to do this alone. I know it’s hard. I was just about to reach out to someone yesterday (tues) when I went to class and that did the trick. If that hadn’t, one of my friends on Twitter would have gotten a DM from me.

Please, please, please don’t fight alone. You don’t have to. Sometimes it feels like you are all alone and no one could possibly care about you or love you. There is at least one person that cares and will listen to you and that’s me. Heck, I’d even give you a hug if I could. Just don’t go it alone. As one of my favorite bloggers, The Bloggess says, “Depression is a lying bastard”. I know it’s hard to believe this when you are going through it, but it will get better. If you need someone to talk to, I’m definitely here for you.

All that being said, I am much better now. I will get back to my regularly scheduled posts. Hopefully I will have one this weekend. I have kind of a lot to cover since the launch. Forgive me for not being on top of all of it, but I don’t ever intend this to be a news site. I figure there are enough of those out there. This is strictly my experiences. I also have a ton of screenshots to go through.

I’m not even joking about that. I’ve filled up my screenshot folder 3 times now. I’m about 700 screenshots into 4 times. If you know how many screenshots you can hold in one folder, it’s 999. Yup. I have around 3700 screenshots. Granted, the first folder is all from the beta weekends and stress tests (for the most part). It’s a tad bit overwhelming. I’ll slog through them, though, because I love you that much. Expect a post this weekend!

 
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Posted by on September 19, 2012 in Blogging, Serious Stuff, Thoughts

 

The future of Centaur’s Satchel

So some might be curious where I am planning to take this blog after launch. It started as a Guild Wars 1 blog and back when it started, it was mostly guides and events.

So what I am going to do with this blog in Guild Wars 2, you ask?

Well probably similar things. I’ll cover events that the GWEN (Gaming World Entertainment Network) crew put out. I might do guides, but there are so many out there, that it’s probably not worth it. I’ll see what happens. If people would be interested in reading them from me, then sure, I’ll do some. They take a long time to put together (especially the way I do them w/ lots of screenshots) and it might be more worthwhile to do something else with my time.

Another idea I had was to do kind of an adventuring thing. I will take screenshots and write about my travels through Tyria..kind of like a journal type thing. It won’t really be roleplaying, but maybe a little bit of that type of element to it. I’m not 100% sure on this concept yet, but it seems like fun. One of my favorite things to do in the game is explore and the game is absolutely GORGEOUS. I already have a whole entire folder of screenshots (and then some) and the game hasn’t even launched yet haha. I’m a little screenshot crazy 🙂

I will also definitely be doing more contests for in game stuff. It will just be GW2 from now on. I’ll have to wait til I build up a good surplus of goodies, though so this might take a while to get rolling.

So there it is. Those are my plans for the future of this blog. We’ll see where it goes 😀 I hope you all will stick around for it, it should be an exciting ride!

 
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Posted by on August 24, 2012 in Blogging, Guild Wars 2

 

Why I’m a gamer

Doing what friends do best.

A lot of people know that I come from a family of non gamers. They only thing I can really compare this to is being a witch born to muggles. (Harry Potter term in case you are unfamiliar)

Anyway, my mom and stepfather both think video games are a waste of time. My mom sort of knows I’m into them and I want to make a career out of it.

I haven’t gotten the question why yet, but here is my answer, should this topic ever arise.

The reason why I love gaming so much is not just because it’s fun. It’s because of the sense of community I feel when talking to other gamers. I also get to meet people from all over the world and from different walks of life. I have friends all over the world that I talk to on a semi regular basis. I know people in Greece, Singapore, Germany, etc. As well as knowing many people in different parts of the US (although I really wish they all lived closer to me hehe).

Sure, you could argue that I could find this anywhere else, especially with the internet being as large and accessible as it is. I agree with that, but the reason why I prefer the gaming community (and especially the mmo community) is that I relate to them the most.

We all have the most in common and I really like that. We are probably one of the most misunderstood communities as well. If the mainstream news is any indication, we still have a long way to go until we are portrayed in a better light (if that’s even possible at all).

I know I shouldn’t take it personally when mainstream media blasts us and portrays us unfavorably, but I wish some of them would do a bit more research beyond what they think they know about gamers.

Gamers aren’t always lazy and sit around the house eating cheetos and sucking down soda pop. I know a lot of gamers that are active, healthy, and contributing members of society.

Gamers are amazing people. They don’t just think of themselves or their video games. There have been numerous fundraisers done through gaming, some of which I have participated in (Pink Day in LA, Toga Party). The gaming community has shown that they have tremendously big hearts. There have been many more fundraisers and good deeds done by gamers. As a whole, they look out for each other and others that need their help.

Granted, not everyone in the gaming community is awesome, but that’s another blog post for another time.

A good portion of the gaming community is awesome, though. Even the reactions I’ve seen to bad stuff happening to people in the community warms my heart and gives me hope. I don’t think it will ever be perfect, but I think it will always be pretty darn close.

 
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Posted by on July 13, 2012 in Blogging, General Gaming, Thoughts

 

Welcome!

Welcome to the new blog! Please excuse the dust as I’m still figuring out WordPress and customizing it so it makes sense to everyone.

I won’t be bringing the old posts over, but I will provide a link to the old blog on a page here. I might individually link the blogs since there aren’t a lot of them, but not sure yet. It depends on how much time I have.

I will definitely link the important ones like my feather farming guide and my Hall of Monuments guide.

Anyway, I won’t start posting here just yet. Still figuring out if people prefer this over Blogger. Also, I’m pretty busy with school right now so this and my other duties will have to be neglected for a little bit, at least all through April. I do have a very special blog coming up, though 🙂 That might be on Blogger or it might be the perfect one to start out here. I’ll let everyone know when it’s out!

 
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Posted by on April 10, 2012 in Blogging, Guild Wars, Guild Wars 2