I woke up this morning thinking it was just going to be another Monday. I was going to go to school and while I generally dislike Mondays, I was ambivalent about this one since it didn’t seem as bad as others (especially since I woke up to news that I had won some tea!). I could not have been more wrong.
I drove to my weight loss place as usual and while I was waiting there to be weighed, I decided to check out Twitter. What I saw changed the mood of my day.
If you aren’t aware, about 2:50pm Eastern Time, there were a few explosions at the Boston Marathon’s finish line as well as other places around Boston. I’ve read some news but I don’t want to say anything for sure since there’s still investigations going on. I am not sure if we will know for sure what happened today. All I know is there were explosions, people were hurt and 2 or 3 people were killed.
This rocked me to my core today. The biggest reason was that I have many friends there and I was there about 3 weeks ago for PAX. However, once my friends assured me that they and their friends were safe, I still couldn’t relax. I was (and still am) really upset about this. It took me a little while to put my finger on but I finally figured out why. It wasn’t just that I had an emotional attachment to the place (I had an awesome time, but I’ll blog about that later), it was the fact that if this had happened 3 weeks earlier, I would have been there. My friends would have been there. Many others from the geek/gaming/etc community would have been there. I was not the only one who thought this way, either. A couple of my friends expressed this as well..
The point is, this could have happened at any time. It could have happened anywhere. I don’t mean to trivialize the bombing today. Absolutely not. I also felt a bit guilty for thinking along these lines and felt like I was turning this into something about me and my friends. I feel like it’s so much bigger than that, though.
I won’t go into it too much (although I imagined writing a lot about my feelings on it). Maybe I’ll save that for another time.
Two other things that weren’t as bad as Boston getting bombed, but still were not good things, happened today. I found out my counselor at the weight loss place is leaving (she’s the one I bought Wonder Woman socks for when in Boston) and one of my friend’s dad’s died suddenly today (not in Boston, in CA). My heart goes out to my friend because while I never met her dad, I had interacted with him on Facebook and I had hoped to meet him one day. He was a really wonderful individual and the world is a darker place without him. Such an inspiring man.
The counselor thing I will get over but I’m still bummed since I get along with her so well. I gave her my email and cell number so she can keep in touch and maybe now we can actually hang out together since she isn’t working for that place.
So yeah, today was pretty awful but tomorrow should be better, right? Right. I’m going to make the most of my life and not let this get me down too much. It’s just hard when it all compounds on you a t once.
Hopefully, I will have another blog post soon. I’m sorry they are so few and far between. I have been rather busy as of late with school and other things (some of which some know about but I want to make an announcement about something else as well). Hopefully this will pick up a bit more in the summer when I’m a little less busy.
Until then, hug someone and tell them you love them, even if it’s a random person. I think today we could all use a little random act of kindness like that.